My whole life, as an artist, I've always told the naysayers to GTFO. I never let them get to me. Every negative person, every dream-crusher and person just trying to get me to 'be realistic', I never listened to them.
Little did I know that slowly but surely, they would chip away at my subconscious until finally, they had me believing that I was selfish and shallow and unrealistic and incapable and unworthy.
I am none of those things.
So many have told me how shallow I am, and I thought, "If everyone is saying it, maybe it's true." It wasn't everyone that was saying it, they were just the loudest. Maybe I am shallow, if shallow means having high standards and accepting nothing less than you deserve. Yes, I am interested in people who look a certain way, on the inside and out, and no longer will I defend my decisions on that matter. Yes, I indulge in material things and I enjoy being taken care of and surprised and showered with love and praise. I deserve those things.
I've allowed myself to stoop so low that they only place I can go is up, and I've got to stop making excuses. I've got to stop rounding corners and turning around and being afraid of the unknown.
I just have to, this is killing me.
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the real deal
"I do what I can wherever I end up, to keep giving my good love, and spreading it around"
Amelia Bartlett, 18; performer, creator, student, optimist. Open-minded and looking to expand.
the real deal
"I do what I can wherever I end up, to keep giving my good love, and spreading it around"
Amelia Bartlett, 18; performer, creator, student, optimist. Open-minded and looking to expand.
can't sit still
"Though I may be going down, I'm taking flame over burning out"
Everyone who has ever come into my life, taught me a lesson, then got swept up by the sands of time, I thank you. To everyone who came into my life and stayed to learn, I adore you. To the one person who decides they want to give and take forever, I'll love you.
what you may have missed
"Transistor, tape recorder, tell me about everything that I've lost. I know you've got it all stored somewhere, at least I'm keeping my fingers crossed.